I'm not the person I thought I was going to be when I grew up. Or, at least, I'm not living the life I thought I wanted to. (Not supposed to, I really thought I WANTED to). From a pretty young age I was sure of two things. I was going to get married, and I was going to have children. I never ruled out doing other things, but I always figured in that I wanted to spend some time having and focusing on a family. As such, I was going to be a stay at home mom at least until my children were in high school. I was also going to be a fun, creative mom. And a patient mom. And I was going to be perfectly content in this role - totally fulfilled. Except I don't cook, I don't clean and my mind goes completely blank when my son says "Tell me a story!" (For the record I usually DO tell him some sort of terrible story that he loves - someday he'll figure out my stories were total crap. :) ) And I got really really sick of being around the kids all day every day, even though I couldn't really admit it to myself for a while.
This year I started my own business. I'm a Real Estate Virtal Assistant and my business is growing. I've actually just brought someone in to work with me so that I can continue to grow. I can work from home but I can also go in and work in the office of the real estate company I'm affiliated with. I like working there. I'm not Mom there. And it's nice to not be Mom for a while. Also, people seem to think I'm pretty good at what I'm doing. Don't tell them, but I'm making it all up as I go along. I always do. Because it really doesn't matter where you THINK you're going, you'll probably end up somewhere different. So I figure I'll make the journey the way I want it to be, and figure out the destination when I get there.
One of my favorite quotes:
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, champagne in one hand - strawberries in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOOHOO - What a Ride!"-- Attributed to an octogenarian named Mavis Leyrer, of Seattle
Good start. Honest. I really thought you know what you're doing :). Be sick of being with kids all the time is normal, that's why we have preschool, more love this way.
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